The growing worries of Juliet

Dear Diary:


What a catastrophe! Am I wrong to think that this is all a dream? I dearly wish I could wake up now, because my situation now is a glorious nightmare.
Romeo has been exiled for killing my cousin Tybalt. I know Romeo didn't mean to kill him! I just know it! It was self defence, there is no other explanation for this matter.
Now, my parents have chosen a husband for me. His name is Paris, a kinsman of Prince Escalus. I understand what my parents are trying to do here. They want me to marry him so that the Capulets will have a boost in noble family against the Montagues, and in addition there is a sizeable money boost as well.


The problem with that is that I don't like him! It's Romeo whom I adore! They cannot force me to marry against my own will! My parents have cared for me selflessly for 14 years, and I would gladly exchange it all for this selfish act!


I have spoken to Friar Lawrence about the matter. He has agreed to devise a plan and here's how it goes. I will drink the vial given to him on Wednesday night, when I am in my chamber. The cordial will help me to fake my own death, and so the next day they will take my 'corpse' to the Capulet vault after they find out I'm 'dead'. Romeo will know of this plan by letters, and after the cordial wears off, he will bring me to Mantua and we shall live blissfully in exile.


I wait in growing anticipation (and a little bit anxiously) of my untimely 'death' and of my happy future with Romeo in Mantua.




Juliet